Away From You…

Traveling down winding roads

I think of you.

Your lips.

Your laugh.

Your scent.

I glimpse into the heavens

Asking for your protection

Every so often.

This life apart is hard on me

Though I mask it with a smile.

It’ll only be a little while…

It’ll only be just one more mile.

Highways don’t love me the way you do.

I sit,

Secluded in a box

With my thoughts to keep me company.

I can’t get used to you not here….

I deal with my hurt silently,

Wishing you were near

And inside of me is wounded

But I have to run this race or I’ll lose it all.

We’ve come so far just to be so far apart.

Needing to have my space

But mourning my sudden loss.

In the morning I awaken and I face another day.

Taking on the pavement yet I’m still so far away.

I miss you…

I just want to be hugged.

Tell me that you love me by your touch,

You dont have to say a word.

But if you want,

Whisper in my ear sweet nothings

That will make my body melt for you and fall into your bosom.

I miss you….

I just want to be loved.

And passing all these exit signs

I look for your figure around the bend.

Maybe that was your voice at an intersection crossing

Or mabye I’m going crazy once again…..

Highways don’t love me the way you do.

The Love Experience Explained…

 

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Track Listing

  1. The Love Experience Intro
  2. Smoke Break (A Black N’ Mild Love Fling)
  3. Escape
  4. Homeostasis
  5. Coming Home Interlude
  6. #CongoLove
  7. Marry Me Freestyle
  8. Take Me Away Outro

Synopsis

The Love Experience” A spoken word journey through a story of love… is an EP created and produced by Inside Nianda Speaks. The story line is inspired by some true events which led to Inside Nianda Speaks writing his feelings in the form of poetry, and also features musical tracks that helped him get through the emotional highs and lows of the Love process.

The story begins with an argument between a man and woman who are in an explosive relationship. Though they love one another deeply, the words they express to one another come from that same dark place, and they begin to inflict emotional damage that tears them apart. (Track 1)

The man decides to grab his go to, Black N’ Mild cigars, in which he has attempted to quit but cannot due to his affinity for them to calm his nerves. (Track 2)

The woman, alone her home, feels the emptiness of being without the man by her side. She weeps, as he simultaneously beats himself up for the situation at hand. His only escape is to head to the beach where he can process what just took place and his feelings about his relationship. (Track 3)

While watching the waves crash against the rocks, the man has an epiphany. Throughout their volatile relationship, he sees that despite the woman’s best attempts at pushing him into an abyss, he always comes back to her arms. (Track 4)

The man, comes back home to the woman he loves, and she welcomes him by serenading and showering him with the love that only she can give. (Track 5)

The man loves making love to her, and explains to her the wild and crazy fiascoes that he remembers about their  various sexual escapades. (Track 6)

He then expresses to her his inner most thoughts about his love for her, then asks her to marry him. (Track 7)

Inside Nianda Speaks dedicates the album to those who shared the story of love with him, and expresses his profound gratitude to the listeners, those who helped his career, his children, and to his Creator. (Track 8)

Production Notes

  1. The Love Experience Intro – Produced by Mulemvo Nianda; Written by Mulemvo NiandaMusic by Kirk Franklin & The FamilyBackground Vocals by Baby Boy (2001)
  2.  Smoke Break ( A Black N’ Mild Love Fling) – Produced by Mulmvo Nianda; Written by Mulemvo NiandaMusic by Fabolous
  3. Escape – Produced by Mulemvo Nianda; Written by Mulemvo NiandaMusic by John Legend 
  4. Homeostasis – Produced by Mulemvo Nianda; Written by Mulemvo NiandaMusic by David Sides & Lucas Teague
  5. Coming Home Interlude – Produced by Mulemvo Nianda; Background Vocals by Martin TV Series, Victoria Nellum; Music by Roberta Flack & Donny Hathaway
  6. #CongoLove – Produced by Mulemvo Nianda; Written by Mulemvo Nianda; Music by Fabolous
  7. Marry Me Freestyle – Produced by Mulemvo Nianda; Written by Mulemvo NiandaMusic by Fabolous
  8. Take Me Away Outro – Produced by Mulemvo Nianda; Spoken by Mulemvo Nianda; Music by K’jon

 

Coming Home: Apology For A Love Affair

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I was a fool to leave you.

In you I found peace.
I found my place to release.
I found my strength.
I remember learning new things
About eachother everyday.
You just wanteded to listen,
For me to talk the pain away.

There were moments of confusion.There were times when
I would compare you to the others,
But you held this uniqueness.
I always preferred you. 

I felt connected to the universe.
I could see all things in you,
And the world saw me too.
My visions. My dreams and wants. My mental breakdowns captured
In your physical fortress.

In time my reality became
Confusing and perceptions shaken.
It became difficult to come to you;
To talk to you;
To tell you how I really feel
And all the while I held this
New found passion that needed
To be expressed….

That’s when she came along…..

I was with her back in college
When she wasn’t doing much.
Her recent popularity intrigued me.
She had a face socially acceptable,
An appeal designed for the masses.
I desired her.
I wanted her on my arm
Instead of you. 
And so, I left you
With little words to explain.

I chose her because she felt familiar
But when we first touched
The spark that I felt
The first time we came together
Wasn’t there…..
And I disregarded that.

I dealt with her,
Despite knowing that everyone
Had time with her.
I dealt with her,
Knowing that people I know
Had thier way with her
And in a way,
That made our encounters exciting.

As we went along I noticed
Our limitations.
She wasn’t as connected
To the world as she made it seem.
I would express my heart and soul
Only to have my words neglected
As if they don’t matter.
As if my thoughts cascade
Into an endless pit.
I couldn’t talk to her.
Like I’m wasting my time and hers.
She’s been used so much that
She doesn’t even care,
Its just on to the next
While I sit here,
Recounting our affair.

So I sit here.
Wanting you…. again.
Remembering the late nights we had.
Remembering the feelings of
Knowing you are where I need to be.
Remembering that it was you
That held me in dark hours…
When I almost turned off
The light of my future.
It was you that captured my redemption.
It was you that expressed
My pain, my love,
My knowledge and ideas.
And you held on to them,
In case I returned one day again.

And so I return,

Asking your forgiveness WordPress.
I left you,
Thinking that Facebook,
Would give me more
Than you ever could.
Thinking that my abilities,
My words and thoughts would be
Better utilized on
A mass appealed forum.
But my abilities are being
Thwarted by pictures
Of celebrities, promos, and ads.
My words,
Are being diluted by the redundancy
Of “Hit like for Jesus….”
My thoughts,
Are overlooked because “friends”
Post where they are in that exact moment,
Complete with GPS maps
And smiley faces.
My thoughts,
Are overshadowed by
The mindlessness of the world around me.

But yet I express love.
Positivity.
At times anger.
But love.

With you my thoughts are seen
In Canada, The Caribbean,
My Motherland.
People I will never meet but
Speak to thier hearts.
On Facebook,  the same ideas
Stay in a circle of people with agendas.

Facebook could care less….

I left you WordPress,
For a fling with a simple minded whore.
And I’m sorry.
I’m coming home.